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P>    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>欧隽坤看着他颤动的眸子忽然间表苦又忧伤地看向他手钳制的道也颓然放松一倒在他抱着他低低地哭起来哭得肩膀颤抖：&ldqu;孟维我对不起你我辜负了你对我的期望&rdqu;

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>从躁急怒到心低落欧隽坤今晚绪波动如此之孟维越想越觉得忐忑一个糟糕的念从眼前一闪而过

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>&ldqu;我也不想这样可是我还是让你失望了我就是个没用的废物什幺都做不了只会一直拖累你&rdqu;

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>如同晴霹雳孟维彻底被这一幕惊呆了怔怔地躺了好一会才缓缓抬手在欧隽坤的背自己服的前也早已打一片他有些泄地想着最怕来的还是来了可怕的抑郁症

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>欧隽坤又病了

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>当知道真相的时候他心疼地抱着这个无助的眼泪又忍不住落眼眶

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>唉他们的乌云还是没顶而来将他们团团困住

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>孟维尝试着着他的后脑勺和让他镇定来仔细想起以前医生给过的方法将欧隽坤哄起来坐在边着他的手坐在一起慢慢地谈：&ldqu;是从什幺时候开始感觉不好的？&rdqu;

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>欧隽坤耷拉着脑袋坐在边的阴影里整个看似苍老了许多：&ldqu;概是两个月前我骗了你我就是个骗子每都在撒谎&rdqu;

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>&ldqu;你骗我什幺了？&rdqu;孟维难免心里咯噔了一

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>原来孟维打电话他陪自己家谈出柜的那欧隽坤在开完一场内部会议后就忽然什幺事都不了什幺事都不想&ldqu;找了一堆七八糟的借一整都没去司班躲在家里找然后了整整一我知道我没脸见你了所以我只有不要脸地骗你说我很忙骗完你我就恨我自己了我觉得自己很恶心很龌龊很肮脏本出不了门更不能去见你也不能让你看到我这种鬼样子我一直想着最好一辈子都不见你这样我就没那幺难了&rdqu;

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>听完他的倾诉孟维致心里有数了同时又不解地问道：&ldqu;可是那晚你来找我道歉的时候你不是还好好的吗&rdqu;

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>&ldqu;我知道你一定很难过很失望如果我不去见你就会彻底失去你那就真的完了了一觉起来后我又感觉好了就赶来找你&rdqu;

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>但是他到半的时候物副作用来了欧隽坤不得不一趟趟跑去厨房找喝折腾了一宿怕再待去露馅于是早一起来他就找了借急赶急地离开了孟维只当他是一心牵挂司便没去追问

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>&ldqu;我其实本就给不了你承诺给不了你幸福我一直都在欺骗你骗你说我很好我很正常其实我就是个废物永远好不了我只会把司砸把我们的未来砸让所有对我失望透顶&rdqu;

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>抑郁心境让欧隽坤对工作的兴趣和期待度一子降低很多应也变得迟缓每像是被很重很重的东西拖着、压着每无论做什幺事步子都是沉重的效率也是迟缓低的

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>虽然每断断续续尚能坚持工作一段时间可是随时随地可能爆发的崩溃感还是会不打一声招呼就固执地找门来

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>在他做不到的时候他只能推给助手和几个副总来帮着打理细节没耐心过问只将工作内容简略到最后的拍和签署好在这些都是自己多年来的得心不曾有过闪失而其余的时间他只有找借躲在家里毫无规律地一十几个时或者坐在台的躺椅胡思想

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>孟维用整了把巾给他脸&ldqu;欧隽坤我们以前约定过的任何时候当你感觉变得糟糕就要立刻告诉我瞒着我并不会让你的状况变好而且我是你友我对你的健康状况也有知权&rdqu;

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>欧隽坤将巾遮在脸无比沮丧地说道：&ldqu;可是我怕你失望更怕你为我的事感到难过&rdqu;

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>&ldqu;我当然难过可 <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;>&lsqu;难过&rsqu;之后要想办法努改善现状从我们决定在一起那起你也好我也好都不再是一个再的喜悦乘以2<span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;

    ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;>就是双倍再的苦除以2<span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>就能分摊一半&rdqu;

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>孟维尝试着给欧隽坤炖心灵汤与他说一些充满希望的话虽然让他的绪渐渐稳定来可更一步的乐观效果却不十分明显他的脑由于神经递质的缺陷依旧执拗地让他被抑郁的心境拥抱着仿佛无望、无、自自弃对他有着疯狂的吸引让他心甘愿地沉沦其中

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>不管欧隽坤再次发作的消息有多子总是要继续去因为面临着里糟糕的眠问题目睹欧隽坤服适量的安眠后孟维便他留在自己家里过或许是因为话说开了没有卡在心里的难堪隐秘这一次躺在孟维边让他感到十分安心原本如前些以来一贯艰难的漫漫长也能让他起了片刻的意

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>正值新旧季节替最是神类疾病被唤醒的高发期从医生那里得到的结果也是乐观的这次被诊断为轻度抑郁发作用的剂量也被重新评估从前参加的心理疏导自然必不可少

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    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>到家里他告诉欧隽坤：&ldqu;我一直会在你边一切都会好起来的&rdqu;

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>欧隽坤答应得好好的可是到了午看了一会电视后就又突然蜷曲在沙发绪低落孟维问他可他就是说不出什幺让他伤心绝的具理由任何时候、任何事似乎都能让他不控制地陷悲哀的境地

    <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>发病的时候不理智控制完全像换了一个让难以相多心的话都能说得出 <span style=fnt-family:宋;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;Times New Rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:

    &qut;Times New Rman&qut;>孟维有时候能忍尽量在欧隽坤变得动的时候和他保持距离可是心都是长的即使一次一千次地告诉自己这是他脑失控不是他的错！不是他的错！可当了太多委屈时孟维也会难过也会和他吵可往往吵过之后欧隽坤就会陷可怕的安静陷的自责负罪感也会时不时地加

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